
I’m drawn to him because of this lingering ferocity I see in men- the possibility of violence.
PLOT SUMMARY:
At a meatpacking facility in the Missouri Ozarks, Dee-Dee and her co-workers kill and
butcher 40,000 chickens in a single shift. The work is repetitive and brutal, with each
stab and cut a punishment to her hands and joints, but Dee-Dee’s more concerned with
what is happening inside her body. After a series of devastating miscarriages, Dee-Dee
has found herself pregnant, and she is determined to carry this child to term.
Dee-Dee fled the Pentecostal church years ago, but judgment follows her in the
form of regular calls from her mother, whose raspy voice urges Dee-Dee to quit living
in sin and marry her boyfriend Daddy, an underemployed ex-con with an insect
fetish. With a child on the way, at long last Dee-Dee can bask in her mother’s and
boyfriend’s newfound parturient attention. She will matter. She will be loved. She
will be complete.
When her charismatic friend Sloane reappears after a twenty-year absence, feeding her insecurities and awakening suppressed desires, Dee-Dee fears she will go
back to living in the shadows. Neither the ultimate indignity of yet another miscarriage nor Sloane’s own pregnancy deters her: she must prepare for the baby’s arrival.
GRADE: A
REVIEW:
If this book were a series, it’d be “bingeable.” Once you begin reading about Dee-Dee and her insect-obsessed boyfriend, Daddy, you can’t stop. The prose is raw and intimate in ways that will hit you emotionally at the core. Full disclosure, I have a phobia when it comes to insects, so the description of insects being placed on body parts was absolutely terrifying for me. But Nash also had me feeling sorry for these same insects later on in the novel, so that goes to show her deftness in being able to conjure pity even for creatures that I’d rather not have anywhere near me.
Dee-Dee becomes fixated with wanting to be pregnant, and this fixation leads her to tell her partner, Daddy that she’s indeed pregnant, despite her not actually being it. Her life begins to derail once her high school friend and fellow member of a church they both went to begins to live upstairs from her. Dee-Dee is convinced that Sloane wants to steal Daddy from her and that she’s trying to conspire against her. The book flashes between the present and the past, and in both places you can’t help but to feel sorry for Dee-Dee, especially in her present where she’s physically and emotionally exhausted by an occupation and relationship that suck so much out of her, without really feeling gratified by either.
Dee-Dee is a sympathetic character, and you can’t help but to root for her, despite her misgivings and the fact that the reader can sense that there’s a tragedy afoot and you’re sitting on pins and needles waiting to see just how much more terrible her life can really get.
I know this is categorized as horror by some people, but I wouldn’t necessarily say that it’s horror in the way that people define horror – rather it’s horrific in its realness and that can be much scarier than anything supernatural ever could. I recommend this book if you enjoy dark lit, twisted relationships/friendship, and true crime.
*Thank you so much to the author for the digital copy of this book in exchange for an honest review!

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