Throwback Thursday: 54

Usually, I dedicate this spot to movies or books I’ve viewed/read in the past and how my experience may have changed as an adult. However, this was my first time viewing the movie 54, but I do recall it being very popular (in magazines, apparently NOT at the box office as it cost $13 million but only made $16.8 million). For the time, it had all the hot young stars with Ryan Phillippe starring as Shane (and single-handedly carrying a movie on the power of his pecs), Neve Campbell, Salma Hayek, Breckin Meyer, Mike Myers, Heather Matarazzo, and Mark Ruffalo. So that’s a pretty solid cast because these were all very recognizable faces and household names in 1998.

As someone who loves dancing and club culture – I don’t know why at the time I didn’t watch this film other than the fact that it came out during the same time Velvet Goldmine did and that film had a chokehold on me that is still going strong today. But I digress. Studio 54, for any of you (basically all of us) born after the 70s, will not know this, but it was a very popular club that many celebrities went to and was iconic for the whole disco dancing wave that overtook the world at the time. Now, you’d think that a film about club culture and dancing would be a fun experience, right? Well, this is where the film starts derailing into some strange no man’s land of “what is this movie actually about?” We follow Shane (Phillippe) who leaves Jersey one night to go party in NYC and he miraculously gets plucked from a crowd of clubgoers to enter the pearly gates of Studio 54 based solely on his good looks (and we can buy this cause of who is the leading star). This sets the motion for Shane to become a busboy at the club and become friends with a married couple played by Breckin Myer and Salma Hayek. I don’t know what I was expecting but I suppose I was expecting a whole lot of music, a lot of dancing (I know Phillippe is no John Travolta but shouldn’t the lead be expected to dance in a movie about club life? Was I wrong to expect this?). Also, this was the 70s and again (maybe Velvet Goldmine, a movie about the glam rock era of the 70s gave me unrealistic expectations along with Pamela Des Barres many memoir books of that time) but I was expecting way more drug consumption than was depicted and a whole lot of kinky sex.

Instead, what we got was tame sex, bland fictional characters, and the only major shock wave thing that happened was when a clubgoer OD’s whilst the IRS is searching for the owner. I was expecting a more magical experience of this era that so many seem to reminisce with nostalgia. I really wanted to feel the biggest FOMO of my life (as I do whenever I see concertgoers in Velvet Goldmine grab their feather boas and run across London). Instead, I was left with this weird feeling of dodging a bullet in a seedy club (maybe the real one was awesome but the way it was depicted in the film, it didn’t seem like anything special?).

Now it’s said that initially, the director had intended for Shane to be bisexual in the film however, the producer Harvey Weinstein was against it, so any undertones of bisexuality were removed from the film and many scenes were reshot. I did watch the missing scenes, and I feel like it could’ve been a more moving movie in regards to the viewer witnessing Shane’s journey, as well as representing bisexuals on film.

Maybe the original director’s idea for the film would’ve been a lot more fun and poignant had he not had to cut out a lot of scenes which then left the second half of the film feeling a bit disjointed from the beginning. It could’ve been an amazing film about club culture, disco music, and how it was a safe place for gays during a time when no other place was safe. Instead, what we got was a movie that mostly exploited the male lead’s body without really giving us viewers the emotional depth needed for us to care about him.

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Throwback Thursday: Welcome To The Dollhouse

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I first watched this movie back when I was sixteen. Living in Italy, this movie never made it to the theatres there, so I obviously found it at my local video rental. Welcome To The Dollhouse chronicles the life of an awkward seventh grader, Dawn Weiner, who is trying to navigate puberty while also having to deal with uncalled for bullying at school and emotional neglect at home. This is the movie that catapulted Heather Matarazzo into stardom, and with good reason. Her performance in the film is so honest, raw, and unflinchingly realistic that you can’t help but cringe in empathy for her character.

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Dawn is such a social pariah that even the so-called nerdy types at school don’t want to associate with her. Instead, she has to put up with goth girl Lolita’s bullying and bad-boy Brandon’s threats to rape her. Even her teachers are awful to her, as she’s given detention when she speaks up about Brandon copying her test. When she retakes the test during detention and receives a low grade, she tries to plead with the teacher for a retest. Said teacher finds her behavior revolting enough that she has her write an essay about dignity and grade-grubbing to read in front of the class.

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At home, Dawn is mostly neglected by her parents who only have eyes for her younger sister Missy (who is pretty and loves to parade around the house in a pink tutu). Dawn pours all of her frustrations towards her younger sister, but Missy always has the upper hand as her parents (especially her mother) are usually manipulated by the wolf in sheep’s clothing that is their youngest daughter. Things escalate, when one night armed with a hammer she stands over the sleeping figure of Miss with the intent to hit her, and then rethinks her choice and solemnly whispers, “You’re so lucky, you have it so easy.”

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Dawn sees a little light of hope when she befriends Steve Rodgers (Eric Mabius), a beautiful high schooler with dreams of becoming a rockstar. Steve has agreed to be in her brother Mark’s band in return of getting tutored in Computer Science. It doesn’t take long for Dawn to fall madly in love with Steve, whom in return only acts friendly towards Dawn cause he’s such a narcissist that he basks in her adoration.

The reason why this movie resonates with so many people, especially girls, is that it unabashedly shines a light on an underdog that is constantly taunted, but she isn’t such a good person herself (she ends up gravely insulting her one and only true friend Ralphie and is always bullying Missy). But Heather Matarazzo played Dawn with so much pathos that we can’t help but still side with her even when she’s being downright mean.

For having had one viewing of the movie as a teen, I surprisingly remembered a lot about it. And no matter how many characters kept telling Heather Matarazzo’s Dawn how “ugly” she was, there was something about the actress that compelled me to keep on watching her. She had a quiet charisma to her, and her portrayal of an awkward teen was flawless. I don’t know how many child stars could’ve pulled off such an emotional portrayal.

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I recall loving the movie for being a dark comedy, and even upon viewing now, the film is very funny but at the same time very dark. Things never did get better for our poor Dawn. She never gains the insight and self-awareness to be less socially awkward, nor does she get the boy. In fact, the ending is so bleak that you wonder what was the point of the journey. This isn’t the sort of movie that assures you that bullying will stop once you get out of high school nor that Dawn will shed her caterpillar skin to morph into a beautiful butterfly. No, the movie suggests that there are clear social standings in life, and often, where you stand as a teen is where you’ll find yourself at as in an adult. A bleak outlook indeed.

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